Nostalgia,or not..

I havent written in this for a while, so I thought maybe I’d put my thoughts into use since I couldnt fully gather them tonight as I would have liked too. If you havent noticed all my posts from the past have had to do with heartbreak and mistakes, however this one is different..or at least I think it is. Why you ask?.. well for the mere reason is I dont know exactly how I feel. I dont know how to feel. Lets start off with this, to you what is your idea or what definition do you think of when the term “talking” comes to mind? A mere distraction from the title of “relationship” that new age slang has used to bullshit around the thought of “being with only one person”.. or does that just mean you get to fuck around? See idk, cause with me.. if im talkng to someone I’m talkng to them ONLY. So Idk how i should exactly feel when the person I’ve been talkng to for 6 months tells me “Yeah, i talk to hella other girls.. but I’d chose you over any of them anyday.” Like, omg thankyou you just reassured me that your a slut.. but i mean thankyou for telling me you’d chose me out of the bunch. I guess its my fault in the end for staying around for 6 months of this, for putting up with all the other girls, for pretending like I didnt care, for not minding being you “main” but why? why did I do all this.. because I like you? or am I just dumb? I never found it hard to let go of someone, well besides my last boyfriend which is understandable cause that was a legit relationship and we were in “LOVE” (then we woke up). but anyways, with you its different, today you asked me “i mean would you picture yourself marrying me”. and by far i think thats the stupidest thing ever because i could have sworn you just said the other day you didnt want to plan out your life, and you just wanted to live for now and see where it takes you..i’m 19..im not thinking about marriage. everything you say is hypocritical and if i were to write it down in a book and turn it into an equation im pretty sure the answer would come up as = PLAYED. but why is it so hard to let you go….why do I want to find out the hard way..

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I wish I could tell you how I really feel. I wish I didnt need to keep it bottled in because I’m scared of how you’ll react. I’m tired of pretending i’m super solid. I’m tired of pretending I’m okay. The truth of the matter is i’ve grown up, and you haven’t one bit. You kept saying “yeah I play around, thats what i do thats who I am” I wish you’d grow up already. I wish you’d realize. I wish you meant it when you told me I was never not supposed to be in the picture. You come back, i give in, i miss you. Maybe you’ll stay around this time…..please stay.

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